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Saturday, October 1, 2011

New look!

Thanks to my super-busy schedule #grad-school-life, I haven't been able to post anything new for quite some time now, despite having some ideas. Will update soon :)

Till then, I thought I might as well change the look (after visiting someone else's blog and realizing Google has new, cooler stuff on blogs as well!), so here it is. I like it because it suggests simplicity, and quite a lot of it.

Which is how I plan to keep everything! Simple. Just like this post! ;)

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Big Red Dream

Naah, this post isn't about love. At least, not in the conventional sense. This is about love for one's dreams, love to build one's life as one dreamt it to be - more in the passion, driving force domain of love :)

About the title, well - Big Red is the most common tagline for Cornell clubs/places to hang out at Cornell and so on. And Cornell - well, that's where my dream took me. So here I am, pursuing my Masters degree in ECE at Cornell University.

Like one of my friends told me, it's useful to be alone in a new place at times - teaches you to be independent, search and figure stuff out yourself, talk to and get to know people and think and take decisions, however small, by yourself more than being guided by people. Although I had some backing - a phone from a cousin, several seniors I knew from IIT - I am still smiling to myself as I write this post having made good progress in settling down. I have a nice lil house with four awesome(ly crazy) room mates, the wallpaper on my phone is a pic of the entrance to Cornell University (of course, taken by me), I have managed to properly cook with minor spilling, my housemates are now my good friends and soon, college would begin. Agreed, all this seems minor, it's not really that big a deal. But it gives me a sense of 'growing up'.

It's not about being independent for the sake of living life as you wish, it's about
being on your own and being able to take care of things. It's about managing stuff w/o letting go of yourself, or compromising on your ideals or forgetting your dreams.
It's about that happy feeling in your parents' hearts that their children are
'settling down' and about that happy feeling in your heart that eventually, you will
be able to take care of your parents and their dreams. Don't think this was what you always dreamt? Think again. It was there, hidden deep and left unsaid.

Well, more about Big Experiences as I explore more. For now, I'll keep you all thinking at this point...

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Some things won't change...

Exactly on this day, four years back, I was horrified at the sight of Hostel 10, IIT Bombay. With the paint coming off, the stuffy rooms, unclean corridors, grim looking - shrieking - and at times abusing [:D] - seniors roaming in the building, I felt it would be such a punishment to being admitted to B.Tech Electrical Engg, and having to stay in that.. something called a hostel, for four more years. Little did I know four years down the line, I'd cry like a child separating from its Mom when I left my hostel. Yes, that's probably why they call it alma-mater - mater being Latin for mother.

IIT is a world in itself - self-sufficient of sorts. In four years - the home away from home, the food unlike home food, the friends different from school friends, never ever seemed unfamiliar. There was always a feeling of closeness, oneness, togetherness which overcame the biggest of problems, deepest of worries and smallest of doubts about oneself. Whenever I remember IIT, everything flashes before my eyes - the main gate (which I never liked, it should be grand-er!), the trees on both sides of the road leading to my hostel, the faculty bungalows nearby, the INFI corridor (yes, it's actually infinite, thank the japanese for that :) ), the various departments (quite silent most of the times), the huuuuge playground (my first love at IIT ;)) and then the majestic hostels 12 and 13... this was it. The 600 acre awesomeness :)

Once at IIT, it's difficult *not* to fit in, in the campus culture, which appreciates everyone's uniqueness. You see the weirdest of people, the wisest of people, the lukkha-est of people, the gifted of people, sometimes the most rebellious of people and truly, the best of people. To be more correct, you adapt yourselves to the culture so well, it all becomes an integral part of you. I remember joining as a meek, serious, extremely sincere and quiet novice. I now laugh as I remember myself not talking to my roomie but reading books (well, not only academic, even others :P) or sitting quietly on the mess table, whilst packs of seniors tried to make us talk, or shying away from hostelmates I didn't know and so on. All of that changed in no time. My days after the freshmen year always began with waking half the others up for class, gobbling away plateful of breaker, scooting to class almost on time, only to sleep midway between and be woken by the person next to me, returning after a coffee at shack with Tf/Avanti/Music/random junta, lunch and either scooting to lab again or watching sitcoms :) Evenings were spent working for one of the aforementioned activities or playing baddy while nights were reserved for some of the most exciting of times - sharing experiences, cribbing (nah, I didn't say bitching!) about this-n-that and if unlucky, studying for the quiz the next day. Ah, I miss all of this so much now...

I miss the people, the familiar surroundings, the huge trees, the clear roads which only get crowded when there's a festival going on, the new and the old baddy courts, the playground (need I say more about it?), the helpful seniors and of course, my friends. I think it hasn't even sunk in properly yet. I am yet to realize what it's gonna be like to live in an apartment with 4 strangers, cook my own food, live on my own while holding on dearly to those exponentially decreasing number of notifications/mails/messages of my 'former' collegemates. Agreed, I will meet new people, my friends will meet new friends, we'll all be happy in our new worlds, probably never meet again (let's just hope the world is a small place and this never happens but anyway...) and everything will settle down. Life will go on.

What won't go, however, is the little place everyone has in my heart, the half moment I spend thinking of them when I do something I always did with them and the smile that follows this thought and the little prayer I say to God - to keep them all healthy, wealthy and wise.. well actually, to help them realize what's best for them, lead them to their dreams and most of all, keep them all happy.

Friday, July 8, 2011

On the other side - of kids!

"Really? You look too young to be teaching LOGIC!" Pleased though I was at having looked 'young', I couldn't help telling the parent in a grim and confident tone "Well, I am a fresh graduate from IIT Bombay and will be joining a reputed University for my Masters in a month and that this is my temporary, part-time job." Yes, I have been teaching logic (mathematical) to the foundation batch for IIT-JEE at a JEE coaching institute in Pune. One of the finest experiences I have had in this long vacation :-)

The idea of lecturing JEE aspirants - for academics as well as non-academic stuff, had been on my mind for quite a long while. Especially while working at Avanti Fellows I went through the whole JEE-studying-times once again, and decided this needs to be given a shot in the vacations. I started with the noble agenda of guiding engineering-aspirants for various examinations - how to study, how to strike a balance between the numerous selection exams one has to give in the 12th std., how to maintain one's calm (hmm, look who's talking :D), and so on. I even diligently made a ppt about a step-by-step approach to effective and efficient studying for entrance examinations (it's available as freeware now, just in case :P) Of course, no famous class would be willing to trust a young fresh grad who can help for three months only, so I began looking at ads, calling up new institutes, talking to them.. but the outcome was similar - we can't allow you to teach, you can help us to counsel them and of course, no monetary advantage. Finally I called up my old, known professor and set up an appointment with him. Thankfully, he was happy to give me an opportunity of teaching, of course, he suggested I also help with the counseling, interviews of new students and so on..

I sat for his lecture about a week after joining the class. Felt awesome to be with little kids, to solve class tests and to hear jokes about - all girls being beautiful and all boys being lazy. Noting down the concepts in the lecture as well as the style of presentation, kind of language used, speed of covering the concepts, the non-chalance/informal-ness of the Professor, I began getting a little worried about if I'd be able to be even 50% of that. I 'studied' for my lecture that night.. writing down notes like - use hindi to make the atmo light, crack jokes related to models, actors and sports, give the students a break after an hour or so, ask puzzles to reduce boredom, ask 'Are you with me, is this clear' at least thrice after covering a sizeable portion... I was afraid it wouldn't come to me naturally as I was new!

But lo and behold! I was surprised to find myself quite confident and informal with the students from minute 1 :) I lectured with confidence and a smile on my face and naturally executed the little notes I had written for myself - at one time, I also used marathi to catch attention and make the class silent. It was a happy feeling when I finished and the students commented they had fun, some asked me my name again, some asked me doubts, some asked me if I'd be coming the next time, too, some asked me what books to refer to (alas, I dinno :P) and others said 'Bye bye, Miss'... Couldn't believe it had been that easy, although had a sore throat for a while after the class! After that, I lectured two more classes on the same topic and my reaction after the third class - which was the most dramatic of all, thanks to super enthu kids, the loooong classroom which made me shout 'junta', 'yaaron', 'Aika ho aika (marathi for "listen to me") till the students themselves began addressing themselves by these words every time they thought I was about to say it.. and until finally someone suggested I call them 'bacchon' :D - was: It gets better by the day :)

Well, it is fun to be on the other side. Of course, it's a huge responsibility too. I had been a judge for auditions at college but this was a different ball game altogether. The students trusted me. They asked me small doubts and expected me to explain as wonderfully as their old prof would have. They told me they were bored after a while. But also jumped up to solve puzzles. They (thankfully) laughed at my planned jokes. It wouldn't have been so great without them... No doubt this was a small class at a very small level. But I am very thankful to them - for making me realize how difficult (mentally) teaching is, and that it's not too difficult once you really want to do it. I am also thankful to the coaching class and the Professor. Indeed, one of the finest experiences I've had in this vacation :)

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Life, Liberty and Pursuit of Happiness

Yes, you heard it right when you were learning about the 'Declaration of Independence' in school. Little did you know these words would keep banging on your head once you graduated. At college, 'Life' was always good, you had lots of 'Liberty' and you didn't have to 'pursue happiness' per se. It was there all around - on your friends' faces, at the lousy hang-out places you always went to, in the engine of your bike, in the books in your bag, in the music playing from your iPod, in the eyes of the special someone in your heart and needless to say, in your wallet.

One fine day towards the end of my final year at college, I was suddenly shook by the thought - OMG, I am graduating. I will have a job, I will be responsible for myself and soon, for my family. Everyone will look up to me for guidance, support and making sense. Though these thoughts soon vanished with the bouts of 'happiness' obtained from countless job treats given and taken, crazy nightouts, worse hangovers and morbid goodbyes, today, I was once again overwhelmed by these three words. Because when I received my US VISA, the first thing Google told me about the US of A is these three words. Not skyscrapers, not super duper machines, not snow, not California, not Niagara, but these three words. And my thoughts flowed endlessly...

Life - Really, does anyone understand what this is all about? Breathing in and out, is just a sign of living, they say. Then, what IS 'life'? I don't think it is what your parents gave you. I don't think it's the experiences you've had or are going to have. I don't think it's the person who you are or what you were destined to be. I don't think it's the kind of work you do. I don't think it's the people who you met or the girl/guy you marry or the girl/guy who broke your heart. I think life is an endless pursuit of knowledge and the sense of feeling for something. I see life everyday when the sun rises, I hear it as the sparrows chirp, I feel it from my Mom's happy face making tea in the morning. I sense it through my Dad's rustling of the newspaper. I stare at it when the maid's 2 year old daughter asks her if she's tired and needs help. I laugh with it when I meet my friends in the day, I rock with it on the guitar, I sip it through the 'naariyal paani' I drink and gulp it down from the shared cake on someone's birthday. I sigh with it when I listen to the news about floods in China, and marvel at it as Japan stands up on its feet again. Yes, I feel 'life' because I feel it. That's it. That is also probably why they say, 'stop thinking, start living'. If I do not make an active effort to know, to feel, I can't hope to have a good life. Simple. Feel it for yourself.

Liberty - It's supposedly the other side of the coin which has 'responsibility' as one side. Liberty. Freedom. Opinion. Choice. Free will. Yes, I am entitled to all these. But just this is not enough. I must use them as tools. As a free individual, I can choose my home, my partner, my job, my principles, my ideals, my friends, my habits. However, some questions always lurk at the back of my mind - Am I making optimum use of these? Or am I safeguarding my interests at the cost of others' liberty? Am I hurting someone only because I want my own free will to prevail? Is this price really worthy to be paid by someone for my free will? And most importantly, am I really answerable to anyone at all?
Try thinking for some time.
The answer is yes. I am answerable to myself. I am answerable to my parents, my friends, my relatives, my colleagues and to humanity at large. That of course, does not mean I have no freedom. The freedom, however, comes with a price tag. Therefore, the next time you choose the wrong over the right, think of Liberty granted to you.

Pursuit of happiness - After a wonderful movie about this, really makes little sense to use words to explain. Pursuit of happiness is a way of living life. Living like a sage is one. Working to make your family happy is another. Both will attain happiness, but through different paths. In the recent spirit of the term, pursuit of happiness is, in fact, the standard way to achieve 'Inner Peace' :D
That's what we all want in the end. We strive to be happy. We work for it, we run for it, we talk for it, we walk for it, we even kill for it at times. Of course, it's not wrong to pursue happiness. But there's a great danger of losing 'current' happiness for 'future' happiness. When was the last time you played with your children? When was the last time you read a story to your aging grandmother or even your aging parents? When was the last time you helped your little brother build his project, or your mother with her grocery? You probably sent them to the best school, best class, best hospital and best old-age home. They did deserve it, but never asked for it. All they asked for is all those things you don't remember doing. Once they ask for it, you'll realize there isn't a charm in it anymore. Similar is the case with pursuing happiness by the wrong means. The bubble will burst some time and you'll be left with nothing you once valued. So, pursue happiness but make sure you'll enjoy the happiness you're pursuing!

For now, I will just pursue these random thoughts for some more time... :)

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

पहिला पाऊस

शाळेतला पहिला पाऊस
गारा वेचत अंगणात बागडणारा
संध्याकाळी धुमाकूळ घालणारा
डबक्यांतल्या होड्यांमध्ये ऐटीत फिरणारा
पावसाच्या गाण्यांवर फेर धरून नाचणारा

कॉलेजातला पहिला पाऊस
सिंहगडाचे वेध लावणारा
बाइकवर चिंब भिजणारा
चहा-भज्यांची चव चाखणारा
उगीचच नवी हुरहूर लावणारा

तारुण्यातला पहिला पाऊस
प्रियेवीण झूरणारा
मनाचे कवडसे अलगद खोलणारा
मातीचा मुग्ध सुगंध मनामध्ये साठवणारा
त्या पहिल्या भेटीच्या आठवणीत हळूवार बरसणारा

कामावरचा पहिला पाऊस
छत्री-रेनकोट मध्ये लपणारा
स्कूटरवर शिव्या पण गाडीत शीळ वाजवणारा
घरातल्या चहासाठी तरसणारा
मनातल्या मनातच लहान होऊन नाचणारा


पुन्हा येतो मग बालपणाचा पहिला पाऊस
भूतकाळ जिवंत करणारा
समाधानाने मन भरवणारा
किती हे पावसाळे पाहिले, याची गणती करणारा
आणि पिकांसाठी, रस्त्यांसाठी, रेल्वेसाठी आणि माणसासाठी प्रार्थना करणारा!

Monday, February 28, 2011

The 'Meeting Friends' Optimization Problem

Going home is a much-awaited-for and happy experience. Especially if you live away from home, in a hostel. However, it involves certain tedious and boring activities - e.g. packing (really really tired of it now!), scheduling (booking, finding flights/trains and so on), filling out forms that 'allow' you to go home and so on.

One of the few highly exciting activities for me is solving the 'Meeting Friends' Problem. The task is to come up with a crisp plan to meet your friends (from school, college, coaching class, old colony, new colony and what not!) once you return to your hometown. Especially if you live 13 kms away from the 'heart' of the city, like I do. So, here's the problem -
You have N different 'sets' of friends to meet (as mentioned above). N might be as large as you want it to be. And then, there are constraints:
1. Some elements may belong to more than one sets, but typically, there's one set they 'fit really well into'.
2. Some elements cannot be in the same set. For various reasons. Again, you know some of these 'reasons' but some end up being total surprises!
3. Usually, you are the only one with no work. They have their own plans, commitments to keep blah blah.
4. Some sets contain majority of vegetarian friends, some drink, some smoke etc.
5. You (obviously) have budget constraints. (but some of them don't think you do :P)
6. You have a time limit to keep. In my case, for example, this ends up being a period from 10 a.m. to 8 p.m.
7. Overnight plans need to be carefully planned much well in advance and monitored.
8. You have to know what is taboo to which set :)
9. --- I am sure there are more here ---

So... I typically begin solving the problem as soon as I board the bus home (in fact, I am writing this blog when in the bus! :D). As a good host, I begin by asking everyone's availability and commitments. Of course, when I was a novice, I used to frame text messages like - "Hey, when are you free?" or "Where shall we meet?" After 3 years of experience, now I know that this is just increasing your constraints! So, the best thing to do is have a template plan ready and try to fit in sets of friends in it. For example, my plan this Saturday was:
1. Lunch - preferably non-vegetarian
2. Coffee - preferably at Barista or CCD (quiet, great place for gossip ;) and you accidentally end up meeting more people, which is good :))
3. High tea (or coffee) - preferably at Vaishali (for SBDP!) or Costa (personal favourite and you get good sandwiches alongwith coffee/hot chocolate) or Aroma's (again, good coffee and good snacks, but costly)
4. Someone's home - You get to rest peacefully (read: lie down/literally RoFL etc.), you get pure water (yes, I am rather worried about this at other places) and it's always best to have home-made food when at home.

So, after a preliminary recap of the sets of people I met the last time I was home, I sent texts to everyone suggesting a cool place to hang out. Not more than 1 out of 20 times you do this will one find everyone free. So at every other time, I try to improvise, compromise, beg, borrow and finally reschedule to suit the majority. Of course, making sure I follow the constraint 2.

Then again, to solve the budget problem, everyone will vie to bring up the best (which is usually the lamest) excuse. You scratch your head to think of reasons from 'someone cracked this exam' to 'his cat had seven kittens, ain't it amazing!' and from 'her Dad turned 50 last month' to 'she didn't give her birthday treat last year'! Usually, this requires one to know the latest updates and hush-hush stuff about everyone around and I end up losing on this front. It does take some time for facebook and google to publish latest updates :-/

Once the set partitions are made and budget constraint is met, other constrains usually get followed automatically. Unless someone is really really late or something goes terribly wrong somewhere!

Overall, it’s a grand time :) All the planning is definitely worth the reunion. The hugs and the kisses, the gossip, the fighting over food, the laughter and the tears, the relentless sharing of dreams and plans for the future and the grave parting notes… Indeed, home-coming is the best thing I do. A warm hug and a BIG thank you to all who give me this opportunity to plan and execute this wonderful exercise :)

Disclaimer: Tried to write it in a simplified manner. Of course, given that I am a “hou ghatleli” engineer (sorry folks, had to use this Marathi word!) I had to be technical in some sense. But indeed, meeting friends is much more exciting and happier than solving this problem and writing this blog post :D